Hai-zi, Wo Ai Ni! – My child, I love you!

Dear All, I would like to share a mother’s feeling with you today, if you don’t mind.

Dear Panpan, my loved son:

I can’t help thinking about you since yesterday – UK Mother’s Day, when you came back and cooked such a ‘impressed’ lunch as your gift for me. I am really surprised by your cooking — the beauty of your food displayed, the delicious taste you made, and how much care about me you showed.

Above all, I must tell you, I am so touched by your love to your mum — you know how to release your mum’s mind by showing me your improved life skill one by one since you went to university in 2007. As being a mother, we hold the worries all the time when our children start their own lives and flying into a free sky, as Chinese says… from your clothes, food, bed, until your study, activities and your friends… Children’s safe and health is a part of any mother’s daily life… It lasts to their last second in their lives!

I want to thank YOU for helping me to let you be free and independent. I wish we could have had a ‘Son’s/Daughter’s Day’, so that I could have shared my love and proud with many other sons’ mothers…

I want to say sorry to you as well, because I had mentioned many times to others before – I wished I could have had a daughter, I had thought that a girl might understand mother in a better way… By now, I know I am wrong! I have the best son in the world!

Love to you – my life’s ‘Power House’ – my loved Panpan

Xie-xie Mu Qin Jie – Thanks to mother’s day!

Wo Juede Hen Teng – I felt very painful!

This morning, my friend Tantan-Niang emailed me with a forward attachment – subject is ‘Do you know the most popular restaurant in Beijing?’ There are fifteen photos about this restaurant in the attachment.

Here is my reply to Tantan-Niang:

Yes, I have been there. The restaurant is called ‘Red Star’. It is for you to ‘experience The Culture Revolution as a fun’.

I was so shocked and painful by this ‘Culture Revolution fun’…my body was shaking when they shouted and repeated those killing slogans!!!

You would know why I felt like that, if you have read my book ‘The Good Women of China’, you would see what ‘The Culture Revolution’ means to my life.

After more than 40 years, I still couldn’t walk out from my painful memory of my ten years childhood during The Culture Revolution …

I can’t believe that my suffered childhood could be ”gamed” with such happiness!

Is it possible for anyone in this world to play War killings as a fun? How could someone play Jews were gassed in Auschwitz as a fun? Or, how could someone play Gaza children were killed in early this year as a fun?

I am sure I am not only the one lost by this fun…

No pain, no gain…what young Chinese could gain from this Culture Revolution if they can’t feel any pain from it?

What might be happened to a plant if it is cut off from its roots…? I think human is living in the same way as the plants…or any other lives…

Wei Shenme – Why?

Renshi Nin Zhen Gaoxin! — It is so nice to know you!

I came back London home yesterday on 6th March 2009, after 14 days travel between 9 cities plus 8 talks/lectures and over 20 interviews – in America and Canada.

I feel that I am dying…not just by my body’s exhausted, but also by the emotional–I have been shared so much with the people I met on this trip…

I think, we never could have known it enough that how much we have been given by life, natural, our family and friends…or anyone, even though we never could be able to know each other…

Thanks to our last generations, without them we won’t have such a colorful life.

Thanks to Harriet and Binh for sharing so much thinking with me…

Big regards from London and my heart.

Wo Hui Lai Le – I come back!